hurting.....

Cervical Spine Stenosis that is the diagnosis the husband was given months ago, since then his arm "burns", fingers go numb, muscles in his back cause pain, his back "burns", the skin on his side and leg "burn" constantly, he cannot sit in a chair for more than a few moments without getting very uncomfortable - having to stand and move about to relieve the "burn" and tension.
Sleep is seldom more than an hour or so, then shifting, moving and straining to find comfort. This poor guy has been dealing with this for months, seen a neurologist, his own GP on a more than weekly basis, waiting for neurosurgeon. Been through acupunture, massage, physio therapy, myofacial is the small relief he finds and it's temporary. He has lost 22 lbs in little over a month.
Need I go on...nah.
We wait and wait and wait some more.
Yet, so strange to see him walking down the street YOU would never know something is wrong...it's all on the inside. Just don't hug him or slap him on the shoulder, he will hit the floor.

Strange...to consciously walk a little behind the man, to stand just a little to the side and behind him ....JUST IN CASE someone should walk up behind him....just in case someone squeezes his shoulder in greeting....I can't protect him from the hurt. ah....life and it's hurdles.

My heart hurts for the guy. I only wish ...for good health. Simple when one has it, coveted when one doesn't.

not funny, witty or clever....lacking jocularity.

It's already April....wow....where does time go? Did it pass this quickly when I was in my 20's...or my 30's...or even my 40's.?
Life's challenges. Constant. Perpetual. True. Neverending.

Seems like when I ask for courage, God hands me more hurdles and I weakly manage to climb over them...albiet with much support and guidance.

Latest realization....(yet, again...) is that as much as I would like to fit in....I don't. Each time I try .....I end up hurt inside. Why try? 'cause I am a typical human being...I suppose. Arrows to the heart.....heal slowly, but they heal nonetheless.

Wasn't it Popeye..who said...I am what I am and thats all that I am.....good lesson learned....will try to learn from Popeye's wisdom.

surely to goodness?

Hi...
Well...again...I nearly forgot my password. I guess I should check into this place a little more often than I do. The memory is not what it used to be that is for sure!

Thoughts.....on stuff.
+Hard to believe but it will soon be a year that my Dad has been gone from this earth.
+I have found that people get kinda "snippy" when speaking of other people's good fortune - like when someone gets to go on a warm winter holiday...not all those around seem to wish them well....I wonder at that. I wish them well, why wouldn't you? hmm.... dunno...things that make me go Hmmm.?
+I have taken exception to the two words "shut up"....I don't like them, EVER....at all.
+My patience level for overly talkative people is becoming thinner and thinner.
+I love to laugh....I don't do it often enough. Laughing is good for the soul.
+My heart breaks for a friend of mine who is walking alongside his Mom while she fights her battle with cancer. Been there....got the sorrow to prove it.
+Sometimes it is nice to know you are really missed or needed by friends or co-workers.
+Having a co-worker who laughs along with you at silly things....lightens the day A LOT!

okay....that is the thoughts plopping outta my head at the moment....I'm done for now...
check back again...another day....you never know when I 'remember' to check out my blog and drop a thought or two down to share with the world.

From me to you....pay it forward...do something nice for someone today.