fear factor

Fear factors:
-Mom continues to 'nurse' my Dad, he is failing slowly. She cries at the thought of walking in and finding him "gone".
-I won't understand the empty vault my Dad will leave inside of me when he leaves this earth.
-items that I look for when I walk into their apartment....Dad's chair - is he in it? Where does his oxygen hose lead, to the bed or the chair.
-the never fail 'bye Dad' yell at their door...just for him.....it's been a constant.

So many thinks floating through my head, all because Mom had a difficult day today and she needed some encouragement....I did that...but then my mind began to wander.....

Then you get up Monday morning and head off to work, put on the 'work' mask and continue on with the routine of life.....strange stuff.....but life is like that....strange, full of wonder, adventure and lots of difficulties along the way to sort out. God help us...sort out the difficulties!