Officially we are on holidays. We went to the lake with friends this weekend, second night there hubby bent over to pick up a couple of blankets we had thrown into the boat and he threw out his back.....really badly! Good thing I packed Advil. His 'tummy' problem continued to act up throughout the weekend, but he would not stay down at all....even played golf, badly...but played. Now really,.....typical though,..... yeash. Stayed in contact with my parents the entire weekend, no changes. Dad did have a bad night the day before we left and I was terrified that something would go wrong while we were away, Mom repeatedly told me...she would handle whatever happened and would contact me if needed. I called them! I'm such a worry wart.
Dad called me today while Mom was out for a visit next door....he wants me to intercede for him on a matter of his heart. Puts me in a tough position......oh boy.....situations come and go but the ramifications can linger on and on and on. I'm a big girl now, hope I can handle it.....God willing.
Our grand-daughter was over for a visit today, she makes me laugh and brings me joy....she also makes me very tired which is okay....cause when my head hits the pillow at night I am out cold.
Today, she helped water plants outside, got her feet good and packed with mud, slurped up a milkshake without really coming up for air, slept for two solid hours, woke up asking questions about building towers...good grief.....she knew more about that than I did, picked and cleaned (from the garden) some onions to take to Mommy to cook, watched an old Strawberry Shortcake video off the internet, had some of the biggest bubbles from the wind blowing threw her new bubble wand, and melted her Uncle's heart when he stopped by for a quick visit and as he left she pointed to her eye, then crossed her heart and pointed her finger at him....the sequence Gramma taught her ....for when she leaves in the car.... I (eye) love (crossed heart) you (pointing at YOU)....we do that little gesture every time she leaves the house and I watch from the step as they pull out of the driveway. Little things that bring the heart some joy, huh.
Things to hang on to.......
I am trying to keep my priorities straight, to remain positive, but sometimes I fail...actually if you want the unvarnished truth....I fail a lot...it's difficult to watch Dad fade from life, his hard to see him get upset over issues that should never be issues in the first place, the phone rings and I wait to hear ....is it Dad? is he okay? is he going to be in pain? has he taken a turn for the worse?
so many questions popping in my head and making my heart race.
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