Why?

Molly asks that all the time now....why?
Yesterday was quite a milestone. We had Easter dinner with Mom, Dad, my brother from Australia Larry, our kids & their families. It was a great day. Dad grew tired, but hung in there for reasons of his own, I suppose. But it was a nice day for a great memory. I did go to the bedroom and cry twice....not over what you might think, considering all that has been going on with my Dad. No, my brother continues to plead with our kids to leave Saskatchewan, to see the world....I know our son has no intention of moving away, no problem there. It's our daughter, who chats up a storm .....and my thoughts go directly to Molly. (Crap...I just burst into tears again....crap!) Just the thought of not being able to get a hug, see her little dimples or know she was just a few moments away about tears my heart right outta my chest. I know that they have no evident plans of moving away, but just having that thought in my head woke me up at four this morning in tears. What an emotional mess, I must be. I never understood how much love you could have for a grandchild until Molly's little hand held mine, rocking her too sleep, having her hold my cheeks with her little hands and say right into my eyes "I love you, Gramma", or like yesterday she pushed her tiny little nose into mine (not so tiny nose) and said over and over again whilst looking into my eyes...."Gramma, wanna go downstairs with me?" I said "what?" just so she would do it again. On Thursday, she gave me the longest hug before leaving the house, moments that forever are engraved into my heart.
My thoughts, my heart.....just an emotional day, I suppose....well, let's chalk it up to that anyway.

As I said my brother from Australia is here for a visit with Mom and Dad. That will perk Dad up like no medicine can, his boy(s) in the same room as him makes him feel better just that alone....does it. I am glad.

Yesterday at church.....sat in "movie chair seats" wow...talk about comfortable. Met a friend that is battling breast cancer, she glows with happiness, exuberance and life....what an amazing woman she is.....what a great attitude.

Life can sure through you curves now and then, we all deal with stuff ....each in our own way.
Today, I think I just need some quiet time, my emotions seem to be at an all time high.....yeash.
If this is menopause, I could do with out the tears part, I tell ya...good grief.