here she comes again? well.....maybe

So, the weather ....uh...well when from Saskatchewan ..talk about the weather anywhere, anytime and anyplace.
Today is no different considering we have a forecast snowy white. Looks like we may get a "dump" of the stuff overnight and continue on into tomorrow. Just what we need, more snow.
I don't know if our "water table" is in dire need of the stuff or not, but whatever the case maybe we sure don't want a "quick melt" to happen!! There are not enough sump pumps in Saskatoon to handle a quick melt...what am I talking about...it's gonna snow...not melt. Trying to think ahead...wrong! Let's get over this hurdle before we hit the next one.

I have been a bit...uh...overly emotional of late. I have been watching my elderly Dad fade. My arm is larger than his now, he's pale and his strength is so low....he doesn't open jars anymore, can't. He sits quietly in his chair in the living room watching t.v. or he lays down on his bed and rests/sleeps for hours. The Dr. has tried to get his iron level back to close to normal and nothing is working. I cried lots yesterday just thinking about him and his state of life. There is so much that I miss about my Dad, like his willingness to take on tasks that seemed impossible ...yet, he made doors out of an old ping pong table, he re-wired my entire dryer when we couldn't afford to buy a new one, he made me furniture that I will treasure in this life and pass on to my kids. Although, he can't do those things anymore, he still makes me feel like I'm so special to this world....his world, true. But my Dad believes in me, always has and that is something a child cherishes in their heart for a lifetime. It's been tough watching him lose strength, quietly becoming frail and weak. My dear husband reminded me this morning when I was talking about Dad and the inevitable "one day he will not be with us anymore"....my husband reminded me that we all finish life off "one day"....it's just watching the process before you that puts your heart into water and pours out your eyes, in tears.
I am not saying my Dad is "near the finish line" ....it's just the watching him fade that is difficult at the moment....I pray that in March when he has some more tests the Doctor's will find whatever it is thats making him feel this way and he will be strong enough to be treated and respond well....giving us more time. My heart is getting flooded from time to time and my eyes water because of it.....