one jumped over the cuckoo's nest.....

It would seem that lately I have had a large amount of (uh....for lack of a better word) TENSION in my life.
I have often over extended myself trying to "help" someone, but lately I have felt as though I have OVER extended myself and am needing to draw back in and regroup, stabilize and find a balancing act that works for me. It doesn't seem to relieve the "tension" when work situations arise and they are not work related but personality related. That a friend who was only 55 yrs. old just up and passed away quite suddenly over the weekend, causing a complete whirlwind of emotions to slide in and out of my life. My sister-in-law was best friends with the gentlemans wife, my brother was stranded in NWT (he is out as of now) causing stress to heighten and a multitude of other circumstances that are circling about. I have tried to deal with situations as they arise, but it would seem that when your in a little bit of a weakened state....the arrows, the hurdles, the valley seems to be sharper, taller and deeper than I am able to handle.
I think I was at my wits end this evening when I decided to make a grilled cheese sandwich for dinner and heated the pan...the butter "smoked" a little but the sandwich did not burn. My sweet hubby decided at that moment to kindly remind me that I had burned the hamburgers the other night in the same pan and noted that "I was really having trouble with that pan?"...
uh...oh...dear.
Too much life circumstance, too much upheaval, too much....too much...
yeah, it feels like I'm in someone's "cuckoo's nest" but, I know that as time move on situations will resolve themselves and balance will happen once again. I just need to remain pro-active instead of reactive.....yeash, so easy to say and sometimes so difficult to do....but God's hand
is comforting and His Spirit is always there.....for that I am grateful.